What is beauty? We’ve all heard the sayings, ‘beauty is only skin deep’, ‘beauty is in the eyes of the beholder’, but have you ever wondered, why all the fuss?
It has taken me twenty-five years to figure it out, and my conclusion, you ask? Well, it’s simple, beauty is confidence. It’s not about your features, your complexion or a matter of size. Beauty comes from within, it is exuded in your personality and in how comfortable you are in your own skin.
I’ve always been chubby since I was a child and this affected my confidence. I remember postponing holidays, events and activities to the future in the hope that I would lose weight and then tick these things off my bucket list. Alas, as the old saying goes, ‘tomorrow never comes’. The weight did not come off and my plans did not materialize. However, this is not to say that I didn’t have a happy childhood or fun teen years. I’d always have a smile on my face and never had any complaints about my life or my appearance.
Things changed when I started my first job. I started worrying about possible health implications as I grew older, and for the first time, I actually took my weight seriously. I followed a practical diet and found a workout that worked for me (given that I am lazy to the bone and abhor the gym). As the weight came off, I started feeling better about myself and became more outgoing. My confidence bloomed and I guess this was evident to everyone around me. Men started hitting on me and flirting with me and soon I fell in love (or at least, it felt like love at the time). The relationship turned out to be toxic in more ways than one. He made me question everything about myself. My self esteem plummeted. I changed and was no longer the fun, happy go lucky person that I once took pride in being. Enough damage had been done. At first, my friends pointed it out. One fine day, I snapped out of my hypnosis and realised that I really had become half the person that I once was. I was at my lightest weight, I should’ve been feeling fabulous, but I didn’t. All because I was not happy with myself, he was weighing me down and it was high time I changed that.
Within weeks of cutting him lose, I started regaining my confidence. I started doing things that made me happy, I started singing with wild abandon again, I tutored underprivileged children (and as clichéd as this sounds, helping those kids, truly has been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life), I laughed again, without worrying about whether I was sounding obnoxious, I just laughed and stopped caring about what others had to say. I found joy in the little things, in fleeting moments and through them I rediscovered myself.
It took me a while and some painfully heartbreaking moments but I am grateful that I have figured it out now. Never let someone else take control of how you feel about yourself. You are the only one who should dictate what you do or change about yourself; no one else should influence such decisions. Embrace your flaws. Be confident, be happy, find your purpose, be at peace with yourself and let your beauty shine through.
This was my beauty journey, what’s yours?
About the author:
This is a guest post written by Enakshi Poddar, Editor in Chief of Connections, a magazine from Alumni Relations Cell, IBS Hyderabad. She is an exceptionally positive, happy soul and a bundle of motivation who just loves spreading good vibes. She is all about loving and accepting who you are. You can reach her, here at Instagram.
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